aligning images by html code, is not very fun.
Ferry to Circular Quay $2.50
Ferry to Watsons Bay $2.50
Doing my assignments with a coastal view.
priceless

Went on a drive with no destination and only one notch of petrol left in the tank, down roads i didnt know taking lefts and right whenever i felt like. I didnt know i would actually get lost, and have no petrol left and be somewhat stranded trying to squeeze out the last kilometer out of the fuel tank.

But in hindsight it was pretty stupid, it was bound to happen and it wasnt so bad. I swear i was on my lsat drop of petrol where i stopped by a cafe in the middle of nowhere and got some petrol @ 153.99! Anyway, I got directions back to Sydney from the friendly convience store, petrol dispensor liquor store owner ( i got there just as they were closing up shop, so damn lucky). So with directions and petrol it was time to head home, not before i sat on the wharf see the lsat bits of sunlight disappear from the sky whilst demolishing a maxibon.

Ironically, the car died today so maybe it was a good thing i went for a drive yesterday. If it happened to me yesterday I would have been royally screwed.

Has anyone done the Cronulla Coastal walk? Apparently a 26km walk down the coast, along cliff faces down to beaches. Next Saturday. any takers?

EDIT: Cronulla Coastal Walk, next next Saturday: 2ND SEPT

well.. i dont want to talk about it, so i'll just have to write about it, leaving sydney is definitely gonna be rough. I'm leaving a lot of what i hold dear behind for not much career or personal benefit. Truly i'm not really sure why i've decided what i've decided. Its like when i see a set of stairs, do i walk down them or slide down the rails? Im always gonna pick sliding, not because its faster just to see if i can do it all the way down and stick the landing. So can i survive 3 years away from Sydney? Can i live alone away from home family and friends? Can i start from scratch and get a new bunch of friends? Can i carve out a second profession for myself? These are all things that i want to find out. But i cant help but think that i'm risking a lot of my future on pure curiosity...I wish i had more basis too my decision, but i dont, the rational part of my brain (which is most of it) is in an uproar, like scientist debating the theory of Intelligent Design. The rational brain will just have to be happy that its getting a PhD at the end of all this.

btw, who actually reads this? My pointless ranting about things happening in my life? Surely there are more interesting blogs to read than this one...

p.s: i FINALLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYY made pork belly like they do at the chinese restaurants. I did not think it would be that difficult to get that crispy skin. But after the 3rd serious try i did it, through a convoluted use of pan and oven =P woooT!

not to mention the ds lite as well. Which is SUGOI! damn, i must resist!


while i'm here, the line for people waiting to try out the wii. This is the first time, ive ever seen the "critical length" theory (where the length of a queue is fixed to a rough number based on the wait time vs potentional payoff) so utterly and totally destroyed.

This post has nothing to do with matty foster and the rage inducing incidents that occured last night but other events which occured later that evening. Its strange that I personally feel that rage is a bad emotion, one that rears it ugly head once in a while in your life and you lose control. The strange thing about rage is that once you have rage, u want to nurse rage, u divert all your mental energy into maintaining the level of rage. Its weird that it happens that way. In most cases i try to not feel the rage and just distance myself from it so i'm less emotionally involved and normally it works.

Last night, i was succumb with very intense and fierce rage and i tried to push it away like i normally do, i tried to distance myself from the cause of the rage, i tried to rationalise it and understand why the causer of rage did what he did and through that my rage subsided. But the side effect was that i can't feel any other emotions, instead of nursing rage i'm putting all my mental efforts into not flying off the hook right now.

So i sit here, 3am, my neck is tight from clamping my jaw shut, my shoulder are tired from driving all night, my mind is more numb then it has ever been and I can't think of anything and i cant feel anything

My mind is frozen.